PRINCESS VIJA
Viva Latvia!
- Joined
- Feb 18, 2001
I wandered over to WISH after a long absence. I have been trying almost every day to get started and by 8:00 am I have fallen down. I am tired of being sick and tired. My body is exhausted. and carrying around an extra #150 pounds will do that to a person. There are so many wonderful things to experience in this life and I am tired of being ashamed. I am tired of not having clothes to fit. I am tired of eating until I fell sick. I am tired of beating myself up. Tired of thinking about losing weight every minute of every waking hour of every day. It even invades my dreams. I had one this past week about losing weight. I tell you I am THINKING about it EVERY MINUTE!!!! It is time to stop thinking about it and time to do something about it.
My kids love me, my husband loves me... it is time for me to work on me and love myself. I am student teaching right now, and soon to look for a job. I want to go in with confidence and feel good about myself. I look at my kids and when my DD says she will always love me I am thinking in my head... "but will I be here for you? Will I die of a heart attack before you are a teenager?" What an incredibly frightening thing. NO MORE!!!!! I want to live!
I already brushed my teeth and am going to use that as a signal that eating is done for the day. Only water after that. No more diet soda way into the night. I have decided NOW, not tomorrow, but NOW I am doing this!
My plan..
Follow the WW plan (with my milk modification)
brush teeth at night for a strategy
exercise 4x a week in the morning
My kids love me, my husband loves me... it is time for me to work on me and love myself. I am student teaching right now, and soon to look for a job. I want to go in with confidence and feel good about myself. I look at my kids and when my DD says she will always love me I am thinking in my head... "but will I be here for you? Will I die of a heart attack before you are a teenager?" What an incredibly frightening thing. NO MORE!!!!! I want to live!
I already brushed my teeth and am going to use that as a signal that eating is done for the day. Only water after that. No more diet soda way into the night. I have decided NOW, not tomorrow, but NOW I am doing this!
My plan..
Follow the WW plan (with my milk modification)
brush teeth at night for a strategy
exercise 4x a week in the morning