Don't know if it will help and I can't attribute the quote (not my own) but I try to use this as my philosophy. I'm paraphrasing..."If I don't like something and I can't change it, I need to change the way I think about it." Had to employ this heavily when I had a co-worker who was causing me and others an awful lot of grief. I had to actively look for positives, which was not easy some days!
Not sure if it really applies for you...just trying to give some words of encouragement.
that's what I am trying to do.