pearlieq
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- Joined
- Aug 3, 2004
Hi! I've been wanting to start a journal now for a while now. I used to keep one and had great success with it, but I got out of the habit. I'm hoping to use this as a place to record things, vent, and look for patterns/things I can improve.
About me:
I'm 25, I live in the Chicago 'burbs, and I've been married for about 4 years. I've been fat all of my life. I started looking different from the other kids around 6 or 7 and since then I've always been the fattest kid in the class, the fattest person in the room, etc. But, in a way, that's normal for me. I've been fat for so long it's really all I know how to do. My mom is fat, my dad is fat, all of my relatives are fat, and my DH is fat. It's just our lifestyle. Only that lifestyle isn't really working for me anymore.
Where I am now:
My all-time highest weight was 385 pounds. Over the last few years I've stabilized and come down to about 360. I'm about a size 28. I am 5' 10".
Where I want to be:
I've accepted the idea that I'm never going to be tiny. I'm a large person on top of being fat--we're all good Midwestern stock! I don't really have a concept of what it's like to not be fat. I would like to be healthy. For a long time it wasn't really that hard to be fat. But, as I'm getting older, it seems like my warranty has expired. I'm developing osteoarthritis in my knees and I've started to have back trouble. I'm flirting with high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and diabetes, though none of those has fully developed yet. I don't have the energy or stamina I did as a kid. Plus I've been watching my mother's health deteriorate over the last few years (she's larger than me) and it's really been scary. I don't want to wind up like her.
I think my final goal is somewhere between 150 - 180 pounds. I'll know better when I get there. I'd like to find a happy balance where I can maintain a healthy weight/body but not subsist on cucumbers.
Goals:
There are certain changes I know I want to work on. I know there will be more in the future, but I figure I'll start with a few, work on them, then add others. Here are my priorities for now:
1.) I will journal every day--good or bad.
2.) I will eat breakfast every day.
3.) I will get some form of exercise each day.
4.) I will stop drinking sugar pop.
5.) I will only eat when I'm actually hungry.
About me:
I'm 25, I live in the Chicago 'burbs, and I've been married for about 4 years. I've been fat all of my life. I started looking different from the other kids around 6 or 7 and since then I've always been the fattest kid in the class, the fattest person in the room, etc. But, in a way, that's normal for me. I've been fat for so long it's really all I know how to do. My mom is fat, my dad is fat, all of my relatives are fat, and my DH is fat. It's just our lifestyle. Only that lifestyle isn't really working for me anymore.
Where I am now:
My all-time highest weight was 385 pounds. Over the last few years I've stabilized and come down to about 360. I'm about a size 28. I am 5' 10".
Where I want to be:
I've accepted the idea that I'm never going to be tiny. I'm a large person on top of being fat--we're all good Midwestern stock! I don't really have a concept of what it's like to not be fat. I would like to be healthy. For a long time it wasn't really that hard to be fat. But, as I'm getting older, it seems like my warranty has expired. I'm developing osteoarthritis in my knees and I've started to have back trouble. I'm flirting with high cholesterol, high blood pressure, and diabetes, though none of those has fully developed yet. I don't have the energy or stamina I did as a kid. Plus I've been watching my mother's health deteriorate over the last few years (she's larger than me) and it's really been scary. I don't want to wind up like her.
I think my final goal is somewhere between 150 - 180 pounds. I'll know better when I get there. I'd like to find a happy balance where I can maintain a healthy weight/body but not subsist on cucumbers.
Goals:
There are certain changes I know I want to work on. I know there will be more in the future, but I figure I'll start with a few, work on them, then add others. Here are my priorities for now:
1.) I will journal every day--good or bad.
2.) I will eat breakfast every day.
3.) I will get some form of exercise each day.
4.) I will stop drinking sugar pop.
5.) I will only eat when I'm actually hungry.