I am very sorry for the sudden and unexpected loss of your husband and soul mate. My deepest sympathy to you. Life can change so suddenly. You are very lucky to have been married to your soul mate. Many people never find theirs. Treasure the memories you have of him. He will always live in your heart. You should still take that trip and celebrate his life. He would want you to be happy remembering him and to carry on doing the things that you loved to do together. I send you a hug and hope that you find the strength to carry on.