Yes, I am back!!!!
And.......I might say, that I do plan to stay. At the moment, I plan to post in the mornings like I used to and do a little posting to other journals as well. Although, I will admit, I am quit behind.
So much has happened lately and I have been so busy getting caught up, but I can actually say that I am finally done with 2006. Saw the tax man and I am boxing up bookwork. Can't say that I am too sad to get that year out of here.
We closed the dollar store at the end of January and it has been quite a relief. Then I spent most of February getting bookwork caught up. That was actually rejuevenating because it felt familiar and useful. Something that hasn't happened much during recovery. You spend so much time reacting to things that it feels good to be active and make plans. We also did some small home improvement projects. I actually managed to get organizer systems in 4 closets.
That is helping immensely with my organization process and it gives me the chance to really narrow down the excess and get rid of it. In fact my organizing is going so far that I got a new calendar wipe board (bigger) and along with a corkboard, I managed to create a message, calendar, shopping list area next to the phone. It is actually working much better than the old system I had in place. Next, I am going to creat files for DH's misc paperwork. His filing system is just not working so I think I will just take that over. Anything that creates more space, is organized, and saves time is my goal.
The kids have been great for the most part. I am still having alot of problems with DD19. She just isn't getting it. We are further apart now than we have ever been and although that bugs me, it bugs me more that she thinks she can take over and give orders, or just be rude to people because things aren't going her way. Very nerve wracking.
Which leads me to my weight problem. I have gained about 20lbs, maybe almost 25 of the 42, that I had lost.
During recovery, I finally hit that point where my metabolism wasn't up from healing, but I wasn't active enough to keep off any excess weight from poor food choices. In the last month, I have finally gotten to the point where I am not tired during the day, but if I do alot of activity, I will crash early in the evening, so I know things are progressing. And I am gaining different ranges of motion still that feel more like normal and I am more confident about trying some of the excercising that I used to do. That is a good thing.
Food has been horrible. Mainly chips, ice cream, crackers, sugar cereal (and I don't really care for it), and anything that is quick and easy. With all the stress of DD19, closing the store and catchin up, I just really didn't care. Part of me still wonders if I really do care. But I am back to hating the clothes I wear and being so conscious of what I look like to others. I know that shouldn't bug me, but it does.
Thankfully, we are reaching a point where I can cook alot more meals during the week again. Even though some of them have been quite simple or have been leftovers because we were busy, the family is not complaining. Too much ordering out gets to you. That and DH really wants a break from cooking. So know is the time to plan some well balanced meals again.
Well, I better get going since it is late. Wow, I can actually start going back to bed at a decent time. I don't have to burn the midnight oil trying to get the books done.
I will talk to you all in the morning.