We're supposed to go bowling tonight with another couple we know, but I'm not sure at this point if we will or not. It's been a long couple of weeks and I'm exhausted.
We've been pouring over our finances trying to find any and every where to save any penny we can, and haven't made much progress. There's just not much left for us to cut out. It's exhausting.
We had to decide this week about renewing the lease on the house we're renting - the original owners wanted to sell it to us last fall, but we couldn't buy it, and since we're hoping to move out of state in 2-3 years, we didn't want to take on a house we might not be able to sell later. Someone else bought it and agreed to keep renting it to us since we've been in it for 5 years already, but he raised our rent $100 a month. The property management company emailed us this week to renew our one-year lease (we've been on one-year leases this whole time, with the guarantee that as long as we stayed in the house our rent wouldn't go up when we renewed) and then told us that the new owner offered a two-year lease at the same (higher) rate. We asked if signing a two-year lease was the only way to lock in the new rate for two years, or if we still had the same guarantee that as long as we were renewing, our rent wouldn't go up again. We never got a straight answer, but the half answers we got implied the guarantee didn't exist anymore and the only way to lock in the rate is to sign a 2 year lease. Realistically, we'll probably be in this house another 2 years whether we were signing two one-year leases or one two-year lease. The only way we'd probably move is if we could find something cheaper that was in as safe of a neighborhood (not that ours is great) and that's really, really hard to do here. There's just something about being locked in for two years that feels different.
My brother is in his first year of law school and is having a really hard time. He's working himself to death and he's really worried he's derailing his entire future because he can't line up a summer internship, and everyone else in his program is finding them, so he's convinced he's the problem. I don't know how to make him understand that these kids have had internships lined up since they were in middle school thanks to their parents' connections. He doesn't fit with the kids in his program and he doesn't have any friends in the town he's in, which makes it all even worse/harder. I don't know how to help him and he's spiraling. He just feels like things won't get any better and everything's going to suck forever - I want to (and do) tell him they will get better, but at the same time I feel that way a lot, too. Life shouldn't be as hard as it's become, especially when you're still so young.
Sorry for such a heavy post on a Friday. Geez. On a lighter note, the scale was down a pound today, putting me at 211.4, which is down 1.6lbs since March 1, and 15.8lbs since January 1. I'd love for that loss number to be higher, but I'll definitely take it. Being 12lbs from Onederland is motivating. I'm sticking to my 5lb-per-month goal but secretly I'd love to be at or under 199 by the end of April, which would mean I need to lose 7-8lbs both this month and next. We'll see what happens.