This has been a challenging week. In a nut shell we've had surprise staff reductions of what looks to be around 20% and now we're going into a complete "reimagining" of how we structure our work, but there doesn't appear to be a well flushed out plan of what that is going to look like yet. People's emotions have run the gamut from anger, grief, fear, exhaustion... everything all at once.
Thankfully I had a counseling session yesterday and was able to talk and connect a couple things for myself. One is a fixation with high school and a boy I knew then, that brought up shame and embarrassment over the things I've done and not done in my life, something I thought I had pretty much worked thru with processing the ADHD diagnosis. Then with what's going on at work, I've had to pull out my strengths and the wisdom I've gained from the things I have done and learned... quite a contrast.
Thru the week I've managed to stay on track with my exercise goal with lots of movement, good for working out stress. I had one day of high sugar/carbs but stayed gluten free and within calories for the day, so I'm giving myself pat on the back for that. Weight wise I'm stalled right on the threshold of one-derland, but I know I'll see it soon.
Plans for the weekend are Sat/Sun to work on the yard, getting some of the raised beds ready and doing more pruning. I'm taking Monday off as a mental health day and I think I'm going to do a mini-road trip. I have some things to take back to JJill and the closest store is in a cute little town an hour and a half away, so I'm thinking I'll go there and have a nice lunch