amandamc8
Earning My Ears
- Joined
- Apr 8, 2008
Hello Everyone
Well, it's 16 weeks today since I lost my lovely DH and there has been so much that we have had to get through so quickly... Our Great Nieces 1st Birthday, Nephew's 18th, Nephew's 21st, Hayley's 16th, Xmas, Miles birthday, New year and my 40th birthday. So many events that should have been lovely celebrations that were turned into the saddest of times for us all. I know that Miles would not want us to be so sad, but we miss him so very, very much.
We are getting by as best we can, but still seem to be falling down the cliff at the moment. I think we do a good impression of getting by - or I hope that is why no one contacts us to check how we are any more. It's so sad, I have family and friends all close by, yet we are so lonely... I know that many find it difficult to know what to do or say, and are scared of saying the wrong thing so they stay away. The thing is, they don't need to do or say anything to try and make it better. We are broken, and nothing they can do will fix us, just some company and a reason to actually keep the house tidy would be good. And it would be nice to know that people are thinking of us...
We did eventually manage to get safely to our break at Disneyland Paris, and although there were some very emotional moments for us, I think it was the right thing to do. I think that we needed to know that we were capable of doing things without Miles, and we did feel like he was with us.
Our next big challenge comes in just over two weeks, when we are off to the Animal Kingdom Lodge for a week. We had some DVC points that would be lost if we didn't use them before the end of March - and Miles would not be pleased if they were wasted - so we decided to give it a go. I think we are torn between looking forward to a break, feeling sad that it will be without Miles, and being completely terrified of being so far away from home on our own! Still, we'll never know if we don't give it a try.
Thanks once again to everyone who has offered their support on this thread. It is amazing how the kindness of strangers can help to get you through when the people you love and hoped you could depend on seem to be letting you down
Amanda
Well, it's 16 weeks today since I lost my lovely DH and there has been so much that we have had to get through so quickly... Our Great Nieces 1st Birthday, Nephew's 18th, Nephew's 21st, Hayley's 16th, Xmas, Miles birthday, New year and my 40th birthday. So many events that should have been lovely celebrations that were turned into the saddest of times for us all. I know that Miles would not want us to be so sad, but we miss him so very, very much.
We are getting by as best we can, but still seem to be falling down the cliff at the moment. I think we do a good impression of getting by - or I hope that is why no one contacts us to check how we are any more. It's so sad, I have family and friends all close by, yet we are so lonely... I know that many find it difficult to know what to do or say, and are scared of saying the wrong thing so they stay away. The thing is, they don't need to do or say anything to try and make it better. We are broken, and nothing they can do will fix us, just some company and a reason to actually keep the house tidy would be good. And it would be nice to know that people are thinking of us...
We did eventually manage to get safely to our break at Disneyland Paris, and although there were some very emotional moments for us, I think it was the right thing to do. I think that we needed to know that we were capable of doing things without Miles, and we did feel like he was with us.
Our next big challenge comes in just over two weeks, when we are off to the Animal Kingdom Lodge for a week. We had some DVC points that would be lost if we didn't use them before the end of March - and Miles would not be pleased if they were wasted - so we decided to give it a go. I think we are torn between looking forward to a break, feeling sad that it will be without Miles, and being completely terrified of being so far away from home on our own! Still, we'll never know if we don't give it a try.
Thanks once again to everyone who has offered their support on this thread. It is amazing how the kindness of strangers can help to get you through when the people you love and hoped you could depend on seem to be letting you down
Amanda