soccerdad72
DIS Veteran
- Joined
- Oct 23, 2012
I'm so sorry for your loss
I was also restless last night, around the same time - had gone to bed, sleepy and ready to drop, but found myself tossing and turning just about the same time.
We're all connected, I really believe it. You and your family are in all of our hearts, Rodeo.
Aww, Wendy, that's touching. I'm sorry for your loss.I know things didn't go as you & your kids had planned or wanted, but I'm thankful you all had both some shared & some private & special moments upon your return.
When my father-in-law passed away a week ago, my husband & I weren't there. We had been there all week long, but, mid-morning of that day, my mother-in-law had asked if we would go out & try to find a shirt for my father-in-law to wear w/ his suit in the casket. I told DH that I would go by himself, but DH wanted to go w/ me & said that, every time he left, he realized it could be the "last time". Anyway, we had literally just stepped into our local mall, when DH's brother called & said we needed to come back because their dad's breathing had changed. We rushed out to the car, & I prayed the entire way back that we would make it. Traffic was horrible, & it seemed like we got stuck at every single traffic light & behind every single slow car.
We didn't make it back in time.
But, as soon as we got back to their house & walked into the bedroom, there was such a different feeling in the room than had been there in all the days prior. And the look on my father-in-law's face wasn't just peaceful & at rest but also... happy. And DH took great comfort in that. I felt so guilty knowing that I had taken DH away & he hadn't been there - because, like your DD, he had wanted to be there, but DH assured me that everything had happened the way it was supposed to &, because of that, he didn't feel like he had missed anything. He held his dad's hand & told him, "Welcome home."
I know the situations were different, but I hope you & your 2 wonderful kids were able to feel that same peace in the room with you.
Thank you for allowing us to be with you during this journey... you have been an example &, just in these short 35 days, your family has touched so many people. Like others, I went to sleep last night thinking of your family. I am absolutely heartbroken for you, & I'm just so, so sorry...
My prayers continue to be with you & your son & daughter...
So sorry. I followed along with your journey, but I never posted, since I did not want to burden you my postings, since I was just a member of the DIS community. You made it all so real for us, which is was for you and made us all realize it can happen to any of us at any given moment. Bless you Rodeo and your family-this was the most heart breaking thread that I have ever read on the DIS. I hope you found some comfort by sharing this journey with all of us-it had to be really hard.
@excited family we are all here for you, too, as you walk the same path as rodeo and her children.I am so sorry Rodeo. You have been through so much in such a short time. I am having trouble writing this because I can't stop crying but I wanted you to know that you and your family are in my thoughts. You did everything you could to look after your husband and protect his wishes. You dealt with his family amazingly well. I will continue to think of your strength through this whole ordeal as I continue to help my husband. You are my inspiration right now. Can't stop crying so I will end now.
You are exactly right. There has been something so powerful here. We have all come together as ONE.I've been reflecting on something all day, and I hope it's OK to share. Since Rodeo first posted, countless people have come together on this thread. We don't the color of each other's skin, how we vote, who we sleep with, what God we worship, etc. And it hasn't mattered -- at all -- because we have been united in our shared compassion, our empathy, our humanity. How amazing that such beauty can be found even in tragedy.
Rodeo, I see this thread as a powerful tribute to your husband, to you, to your family and to the love that will live on. Continued prayers for peace and comfort.