So sorry for your loss. Been there, done that and some days still doing it. I lost DH 2 years ago. It takes time to find the new normal. The first year of "firsts" (holidays, anniversary, birthdays) are the hardest. Let yourself be taken care of a bit by family, friends, and church if applicable. Don't make any snap decisions unless circumstances force you to. You will find your way and a grief group can be helpful. Be kind to yourself as there is no wrong way to grieve nor is there a timeline to when you "should be over it". When you do go back to Disney (it does lift your spirits and help to feel better) try not to recreate past vacations. When our family went, it was all about the rides. When I go now it is about the experiences like going on tours, photo safari, and people watching. It does get better but it takes time, even years. Peace.